I don't have all the answers, I haven't got it all together and I am far from perfect and still have a lot to learn.
In saying that, I have learnt some things that may assist you in having more joy, success and experiencing unconditional love for yourself and others around you. I’m happy to share what I've discovered along the way in this crazy journey called life. This is my story and how I got to where I am today and why I do what I do.
My family and I emigrated from Kazakhstan to Australia in 1994, we spoke no English, and all of my families, and our belongings, fit into just two suitcases. I was an eight-year-old with no friends and seemingly no prospects. I felt lost, and on some level, I felt hurt too, hurt that my parents had done this to me and my brother. Of course, they were looking for a better life, but I failed to understand that at the time.
Even after I learned to speak and write English, school remained a struggle for me. It was just never my thing. I had a hard time paying attention to the teachers and remembering what they were saying, so I assumed I wasn’t very smart. Our family was middle-class, my father working in a trade and my mother working as a cleaner. My family lived paycheck to paycheck, never saving any extra money, certainly never taking any time to learn about investment opportunities or how to create wealth for the future.
I WANTED SOMETHING MORE IN LIFE BUT DOUBTED THAT IT WAS WITHIN MY REACH.
Looking at my parents and the people around me I thought that a middle-working-class mindset in some trade, was bound to be my lot in life too. However, the drive to achieve my full potential was always there inside me. Growing up, life looked great on the outside. It would seem to most people that I had it all together for most of my life. Lots of friends, a loving family and stable job that paid well. However, my experience of life and myself was very different growing up. Most of the time I never felt like I could be myself. I was always afraid of what people would think of me, so I became a chameleon, morphing into the person people expected me to be, depending on who I was hanging with at the time; always wanting to please and say the right things. Life started to become very restrictive and difficult to participate in. Simple task became a chore, going to a restaurant or a shopping centre, would elevate my fear and anxiety through the roof. I knew something had to change
THE DAY I TOOK MY FIRST PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT SEMINAR, EVERYTHING CHANGED!
That was the turning point in my life. I walked out of that seminar a different person, viewing my life from a new perspective. Since that day, nine years ago, I have spent tens of thousands of dollars attending seminars with some of most successful and powerful ‘thought provoking’ leaders of our time. The amount of hours that I have spent in seminars and workshops, I cannot even count. CDs, audiobooks, I ate them for breakfast on my way into work. This journey has been challenging, confronting, exhausting, and exhilarating, and I have only just begun.
Over the last 12 years, since I started this journey of personal growth and self-discovery I have met a ton of amazing, wonderful souls and have had the opportunity to be a part of some incredible endeavours. A lot of the time, I accomplished new feats without even realising it until later. For example, I have lived outside of my comfort zone for 30 days, helped transform trafficked women in Nepal, raised awareness of depression and suicide, done a seven-month immersion program in transformation, assisted in seminars and workshops supporting thousands of people in their own personal transformations, travelled to more than twenty-four countries, sat with a medicine man in the jungle, did a thirty-day juice fast, transformed my health, took on two kids as my own and built a dream home with my family.
While on this journey, I also met the most amazing and loving woman, my partner in crime and my Twin Flame,Annalie. In this union I have grown spiritually and have awakened more to my inner-self than ever before. In the past two-and-a-half years since we met, I’ve started to integrate all the knowledge I have accumulated over the years, I am drawing more and more from my heart and fully experiencing life. I have turned myself inside out over and over again in this union, sitting with and facing shadows that I didn't want to face, I have I learnt to love parts of myself that I didn't think I could.
“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
- Marianne Williamson
LOOKING BACK, I NEVER EXPECTED ANY OF THIS. I USED TO THINK OF MYSELF AS ORDINARY. I USED TO THINK I LACKED ANYTHING SPECIAL TO OFFER.
Now, however, I’m starting to feel my true worth, and learning to value myself and what I have to offer. I am on a mission to inspire people to do the same so they can accomplish feats beyond their wildest dreams too. I am on a crusade to teach people to stop looking outside themselves for happiness. Everything we need, we already have within.
There is nothing inherently different about me. I just saw what I could do and did it. You can do the same. I will be right there with you on this crazy adventure called life. I have learned a lot about relationships, money, spirituality, business, mastery-of-self, philosophy, and personal development, and it is my life’s joy to share with you, what I have discovered, using my own struggles as a model for you.
Today, I am the best person I have ever been!
You can be too.
My goal is not to be better than anyone else, but to be better than I used to be”
- Dr Wayne Dyer -